I’ve been debating writing this post for months and finally decided just to pour it all out. So just to warn you, it’s a little long. Not many people read this blog and some already know what’s going on. I want to do this so I remember everything and can one day look back at this time in our marriage.
As you all know, we got married April 30, 2011. We left for our honeymoon the Monday after our wedding and decided while we were on it that I would stop taking my birth control and see what happens. Just old fashion baby making, no charting or ovulation tests. I also started taking prenatal vitamins this month (May).
In July I started charting and we actually started trying during my “fertile days.” a month after doing that with no success, I ordered ovulation strips I had seen on someone’s blog. Started using the ovulation strips AND charting back in August. I wasn’t TOO concerned yet because I had read that it can take a few months to get pregnant after being on birth control.
By October I was stressed/scared/nervous /sad. Having a baby is all I have wanted my entire life and here I am 5 months into trying and not having any luck. My sisters and Derek’s sister can look at a guy and get pregnant so I assumed the same would go for me. I knew it was early to be concerned since they say you should try for a year but I talked Derek into going with me to see a fertility specialist. I just wanted to make sure something wasn’t wrong and if something was, I wanted to start the next step.
I had an appointment in December and I got a phone call one afternoon from the clinic saying I had missed my appointment that morning. I broke down and started bawling! This appt had taken us a month to get into and I had it marked down for the next day. I was sssooo mad at myself and them! They don’t call to remind people of their appts, they send out letters. We had recently moved and hadn’t gotten our mail with our reminder letter. Who sends out letters nowadays?! So I called Derek bawling and he said he would do everything he could to get us a new appt ASAP. He called later that day with a new appointment at a different place. LIFE SAVER!
So in December we met with a fertility specialist and found out everything looks great for both me and Derek. Our insurance doesn’t cover these appts so we have had to pay a pretty penny but it’s all worth it to us. There is a test to make sure my fallopian tubes aren’t blocked but that’s $1200 so we’re holding off on that for now. We were given a prescription for Clomid and we are going to try that for a couple months before deciding our next step.
I didn’t write this to complain and for people to feel sorry for us, I just wanted to let it all out. This is something we so badly want and we just pray that everything will work out. I know god has a plan and I try not to beat myself up about why I’m not getting pregnant because I know everything happens for a reason and it’s not in our hands. Please pray for us and I am open to any suggestions/recommendations!
What it looks like under my sink